I saw the phone light up out of the corner of my eye. I picked it up and scanned the text:
“Are you free to hang out today?”
I cringed. “No”, I thought, “I don’t have time to hang out today or any day this week.”
I was in the midst of a very busy season and often found myself feeling overwhelmed. The thought of even one more activity made me anxious. I texted back an apology and gave some excuse for why we couldn’t meet.
“…I’m leaving town Saturday, but perhaps when I get back?”
“Sure, when you get back,” she responded.
I knew she was disappointed. When I ran into her on Sunday she looked tired and I could sense her sadness. I meant it when I offered to meet with her one day this week. I genuinely wanted to hear what was going on in her life. I just didn’t realize how busy the week would be.
I later learned she had run into my friend at a coffee shop that afternoon. When my friend asked how she was doing, she began to cry. She was not ok. She needed to talk. Praise God, my friend was available to spend time with her.
Perhaps God never intended for me to speak with her that day, but I can’t shake the feeling that I missed an opportunity to love my sister well. I missed an opportunity to be used as a vessel of God’s love for a woman who desperately needed His hug.
Ashamed, I confessed my sin to God and asked him to show me how to navigate through the busy seasons of life. During my quiet time, several days later, I read Leviticus 19:9-10 and it has become a guideline for how I schedule my days.
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